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so i wrote this post not too long ago (and, as a sidenote, i would put a link to it on the word "here," all fancy like, but i have neither the smarts nor the energy to find someone with the smarts to do so. please continue.) about appreciating the tempo of my life, regardless of whether it can be described as rapid-fire or glacial. i wrote that then, when my life could be described as the latter, and i was secretly hoping things would pick up. well, here i am to tell you that your mother was RIGHT, ducklings: you must be careful what you wish for. jeeez louiiiise things are crazy right now. seriously, crazy. and if you and i talk on the phone more than once a month, then you know all about it. and if we don't, it's probably better that you don't ask, or care, for that matter. because being my friend right now, sadly, involves nursing me through damn near every day that goes by. i'm not self-reliant right now, i'm not head-held-high right now, i'm not as invested in anyone else's life as i should be right now. i am an attention hog and, unfortunately, it's necessary. so what i'm saying is (again, can i say what i mean in less words? ever? i could probably highlight several "heres" right about now.), friends, just bear with me. it'll all come out in the wash. it always does, and it always will. and i promise that sooner rather than later (please please please) i'll be boring again and i can be better. until then, thanks if you're sticking it out with me. : ) xoxo