ain't it the truth

i've been thinking a lot the last couple of days about friendship. real, true friendship. i am the kind of person who easily meets and connects with people, as i am generally an open book and about as hard to see through as a screen door. but even with numerous acquaitances, i can tell the difference between faces i know and the real deal. what i'm not always that good at is taking the best care i can of these people. i am so lucky that my small group of close friends has only gotten bigger and more varied the older i have gotten. i have my roommates at home, who are all like family to me, and my girls at work who listen endlessly to my bullsh*t, and my friends in little rock and tulsa who are a perfect example of every cloud's silver lining, and my friends from my old office in mtn. home who are the best mother/sister/friends any girl could ask for, and various others spread out all over the country who have a room at my house anytime. and all of these people, amazing and phenomenal as they are, are still second only to megan who will always be my very bestest friend and soulmate, and my parents who are above and beyond the best people i know. what i'm getting at (not so succinctly) is that there are SO many of you that i consider close to me, as close as close gets, and i love you all SO much. i was reminded this weekend that i may not be as mindful of each of you as i should be. not in so many words, you know, but that was kind of the gist. i have many faults and am, as the postsecret suggests, a TOTAL idiot. but one of the characteristics on which i have always prided myself is being a good friend, and i may be falling by the wayside. not just recently, either. so this is my public apology to anyone who feels slighted in any way, to anyone who misses me and wishes i would call more, to anyone who reads this blog and worries when i don't update (i'm talking to you, tammy). i love you, i love you, i love you. and i'll do better by you. : )